Real love

Never become so in love with someone that you lose being true to yourself. Oh, It's ok to become crazy. It's ok to become so overwhelmed that you lose some focus. Because a person when stuned by powerful emotions is by nature possesed of the blindness and irrational enthral that heady love is known for, But, when you find yourself willing to figure in the cost of yourself, true to who you know you must be and can never escape, you are lost. Because one thing is true of love if it is ever to be mutual. One must be grounded in ones self... that must not change. If I ever feel it worth it to throw all caution to the wind and go for that one I want... It must be done with the passion that is me. It must flow from a real and solid and unmistaken source that had no doubt. If you lose the self that one must be true to then you have devalued yourself. All at once you have nothing to offer the focus of your love. What is there to give? The risk that must be taken can not be a risk of the lose of ones inner source because because to make that fatal mistake is to make the one you want a reflection of all you can't be. You then reflect incompleteness. This incompleteness is the very potential that the consumation of your love feels so certain to make real. Essentially you embody the thing that you love. When that happens you have no capacity to be what would be the recipient of you love, your personhood,... the very thing that it is your most consuming wish to give and complement perfectly has disappeared. The person who knew you has no chance of loving you..., because you are gone. When you cannnot take a risk of giving all of you at the chance of rejection you are no longer making the vulnerable step into the wonder of that magical relationship that is only possible when the one you love has the chance to see and love something that is a risk for them but likewise has the potential for offering something foreign and exotic. To take the crazy step I want to take must involve the reestablishment of that confident me who was fully aware of the total rightness of myself as who I am destined to be. Once I am sure that is recovered then it is ... to make the dive or not. Reassessment will be necessary but it will be immediate. With that old personhood of mine back in place, then I can take the leap and even if I lose I can't totally lose because ... Well things between us are in some sense bonded forever.