After nearly a year..... I RETURN

After quite a spell of dormancy of mind and .... soul ( of a sort ) I am back at the helm of my blog. Well, Blogs (3 others). I suspect I will have quite a bit to write here now that I am back. One thing I will, here, remind myself to do is get some pictures of Maverick to put on the net. I have always told him that he needs some kind of public forum, if for nothing else to just see how people react to him just in photo. Not my blog.... not the most public of spots... No, somewhere; I have told him he could be a model, so why not lets see if we can find a spot to put him. Hey I've got it! the straight version of the hot or not site. It exists. And you get votes. Not only can he get feed back, but he will have a reason to get on the net, even if it is for the sake of sheer vanity. Girls who think he's hot will send in votes and self introductions. He just might get some keyboarding practice along with the associated verbal practice that come with it. Plus, he can meet people with similar interests in musical and lyrics writing to visit with globally. Damn, I have good ideas!
Well, I agree with Bill. After reading over much of my old blog, I can see that Timmy was quite an obsession. Furthermore, his comment in regard to how I talked about Maverick when he first went to RPF is, as he said...." You sound like you did when you used to talk about Timmy." I don't want that disaster to repeat itself. I haven't spoken to Timmy in almost 4 years now. For that to happen with Maverick..... well, It ain't gonna happen. And that is paticularly sobering, because the similarities are rather startling. But, much is different just the same. One thing is certain, many mistakes I made in torpedoing that relationship I already know I am avoiding here. I am being honest and am making it a point not to ( as best I can) make him the target of my own inadequacies or failures to manage my own emotional stability.
Maverick is straight, and as such, he is amazingly tolerant of my weaknesses where he is concerned. Whats more, the better friends we become the more careful he is, in every respect, to not take advantage of my vulnerability. It takes diplomacy and sensitivity to be so generous while not leading me on. It is also a sign a real friendship. Kim is so lucky, she might as well have won the lottery.