Today I go to Gentry Elementary Library to sell my library books. It is a one hit short day so I can make a few afternoon calls and beef up my later in the month calender.
It has been a while since I posted to the net as I have not had the time. But when you are a writer, or an aspiring one, you have to make the time; And as I smooth out the kinks of my flow in the work arena this will be much easier to accomplish.
Trouble at home: That's one of the kinks. Mom and Dad are driving me nuts. They are insistent in knowing every detail of what I am doing and my Dad protects my new truck like it was cast in gold and I have questions as to whether I want the responsibility. All in all I would rather write and this is a way to make money for the family because with almost (I won't say) 5 digits at least, in the bank in cash with the home and vehicles paid for, Yet they worry about money at age 75. They have medicare and supplemental insurance. they take about 150.00$ a month in perscriptions. Their present income from social Security is 1620.00$ a month and they have another job that takes up all of two days of week from which they earn almost the same amount. they have no outstanding bills, credit card or otherwise and they worry about money (mainly mom) to the point of making me bonkers. I am their only son. I work and live here adding to the household income ( although there are times when I am not working). I have worked 4 out of the 5 years we have lived here.
Our philosophical positions are all very different. They are the fundamentalist christians ( who speak a lot about faith) yet they don't have faith in much. they are always worried something will fail, break, be expensive. You name it. And they think I can do nothing with out their help.
One might ask me why in the hell would you stay? You're 43! Good god man; go out and get a life! Well there are some drawbacks. 1. I am their only son. 2. They are 75 and alone. 3. They want me here. 4. They unconciously try to undercut my efficiency by interference and doing things for me leading me at times to question my own competency. 5. I have been married 2 am bisexual and would prefer maybe trying out a gay relationship but this is impossible in their world. I don't want to break their heart so I rather remain celebate and just concentrate on my passions. But working takes up much of this time. + it is easier to have your laundry done, meals cooked and any and all other responsibilities taken care of. I lived on my own for 20 years but, this is comfortable except for the latest issue of the new truck and starting work season. So life is life. c'est la vie. I will survive and ... better than most! whine whine whine.... (refering to myself)
More later out to work>>>>>
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