Depression?... Yeah feel it. Yuck, I fell asleep today. I couldn't wake up more. I couldn't really do anything to make it stop. Even getting up and walking around the room... The whole house. I just stumbled around and bumped into walls in a kind of stupor I couldn't come out of it. It depresses me after any of these incidents happen. I am not sure why I feel so depressed except that I guess it makes me feel out of control. As I may have mentioned in neurological perturbations and such in another post, I, when I don't take my provigil, often times fall asleep. Fall asleep rather quickly without much warning or ability to resist. I have gotten to where now I can catch my self feeling a little like I'm getting sleepy. But it is different from just feeling drowsy and yawning and such. And it is something that you also can not shake by just getting up and staying up and moving around. Initially the sensation is like just a kind of slightly less awareness, and thickening, like I am weaker, yet it's something I have had to teach myself to begin to notice. It is abnormal and I will be having a sleep study and sleep latency test on the 1st and 2nd of Sept. I hope they find the cause because even half a provigil is not enough to stop the sleep onslaught.
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