IT'S JUST BEING AND BEING AND KNOWING IT; THAT'S ENOUGH AND A MIRACLE IN ITSELF AND SO HERE IS A PIECE OF ME AND MINE AND OTHER AND ALL IN ONE AS ME DEAD AND ALIVE AND NEITHER A LOSS OR A GAIN A PRINCE OR A PLANE OF ASTRAL BLISS TO KISS; FOR EUPHORIA IS THE BEING OF ALL AND NOTHING... EGO DEATH........ONLY LIVING TO LIVE.
Saturday, July 10, 2004
sleeping sickness----and other neurological perturbations
I got up today and posted some stuff to my blog. No sooner than I had pushed the post button and eaten a stray piece of birthday cake, and it came upon me. That deeply sleepy....I know I am going to fall asleep feeling,...it took hold and soon I was asleep sitting here with my laptop in my...well...lap. My parents appeared in the room as usual when I find myself zonked. I told mom "I don't take my provigil on the weekends it is too expensive. She of course said well you should and I did knowing that I would only be kept awake for a short period, only to succumb again shortly. ( Provigil is a medication used by senile people to keep them more alert and for narcoleptics who fall asleep will driving bulldozers. It is also known as Modafanil in Europe and Alertec in Canada. It is a schedule 4 controlled substance the lowest category I believe with a very small potential for abuse. I, although I am a small sample group unto myself, feel no urge to take more than prescribed, nor do I feel high when taking it. However, it does work to keep me from falling asleep during the daytime inappropriately, as long as I don't wait until I have already succumbed to the sleepiness one or more times before taking it,... as I did this morning.) I will look into getting the cheap alertec form from Canada for my next prescription depending on the final outcome of all the tests they keep running on me. I have already taken a "sleep deprivation EEG" ,and since it showed no tendency for sleep involved seizure activity (suspected for reasons I will explain on another day). They want to schedule me for a sleep study and sleep latency study sometime in the future. So now it is 9:00 PM and I awoke an hour and a half ago and slept basically all day. Well I had intended to expound upon some great theoretical thoughts that brew in my mind from time to time, but unfortunately the only thing brewing today has been dreams that I can't remember well enough to recount. So, this little story will have to suffice for this entry.
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